I'm confused right now. I'm scared to set my targets once again because it will only bring a big dissapointment. Back then, I used to set targets that beyond my expectations and the result was devastated. It's prolly because I didnt work hard for it. I dont have sense of urgency , I guess.  Lesson learnt for me now. Not to set something that is beyond your expectation and work hard for it.

School was alright . Coping with studies now since it's just a revision year for us . Even so, cant slack beacuse once you slack, that's it ! Refreshing memories now . Time flies fast . January coming to the end soon . Soon, February.

Amy.

1. Amy is the nick-name
2. I love purple
3. Huge fan of Katy Perry
4. Also, Hilary Duff , One Direction, Britney
5. Kpop is my addiction
6. Given a second chance to complete my studies
7. Blackberry user
8. Vampire is the SEX
9. I love to swim
10. im such a lazy -arse
11. Im a clarinet and bass clarinet player
12. Forever alone
13. I have no boyfirend
14. I can be negative thinker
15. Im not a big spender even though i have this mindset to buy alot of things
16. I can spend my whole day without doing anything
17. My mood depends on how people treat me
18. Hates people to remind me what to do ( im not that stupid )
19. I dont mind people come and go but im surely will miss them
20. I think im still not over something
21. My parents dote me very much ( think so)
22. Im afraid to commit / against rules
23. Not a smoker/ drinker/ clubber
24. Hates people to treat me like one stupid dumb-fool
25. imma straight-forward person
26. I love Victoria Secret 's Fashion Show
27. The Vampire Diaries freak
28. Major crush on Ian Somerhalder
29. I have this fetish on boys with blue eyes
30. I love to travel but sadly i only travel when i was young :(

I was given a second chance to prove everything . Everything that I could do better in future . I dont wish to disapoint them again. Once it enough.  Trying my best to recall what I have learnt in the past. Everything seems rushing. With people that are so competative, it makes me to work harder more. Im blessed that my past friends are there and encouraging one another to study better. I have seen improvement in them .They are not "semangat 5 minutes" anymore. No more time to waste .anymore .

Amy.

Wondering soul. I wasnt expected this much . I felt that the world is laughing at me. Life was unfair. I was helpless at the moment. My world getting darker and my future getting dimmer.  I have crush someone's heart. Someone who's hoping that i could make it. But, i only bring sadness to them. Even so , they never failed to support me. Encourage me. Telling me that my journey does not stop here. I know they are trying their best to hide their sadness but their eyes can tell that they are lying . Tears rolling down each time they comfort me. I failed to make them proud . but still, they try thier best to calm me down. They called my relatives asking whether there's a hope for me even though the chances were slimmer. At that point of time , I have decided where to proceed next with the support of my parent.

But... they decided not to accept me since I met their criteria. And again, hopeless soul looking for the next destination.  But still, im gonna against it. At the same time , I have to prepare the plan B.

I wanna say a big thank you to everyone who is being there for me when i broke down. Trying their best to comfort me, encourage me , helping me if there's chance even though there wasnt. Yes, this is an eye opener for me . To my dear parent, sorry that i could not make it. I know it crushes your heart . but, you never failed to cheer me and told me that there's still a chance  for me .thankyou so much and i promised i will harder . I wont forget you told me this " dont cry anymore. you are still young . You still can study . I dont mind spending more money on you as long as you succceed." Even though it breaks my heart, but im glad you are  giving me a second  chance. thankyou so much and i love you.